Fearless

We are living in uncertain times indeed. It is unsettling to watch the news or scroll through social media. The world seems to be in chaos, is it possible to not feel the fear that surrounds us? How should we respond? How should we cope?

Can we live fearlessly? Yes! (Don’t worry, I’m not calling for recklessness, I understand that there are real dangers in the world and it is good to be prepared and take precautions if needed.) I can truly say that I know that I am free of fear because I know what it is to live with fear.

When our family is on the road, ministering at churches across America, I often have the opportunity to pray with women at the churches. I have noticed that fear is a common theme/prayer request. Fear can present itself as worry, stress, anxiety, and actual physical terror among other things. These requests for prayer stick out to me more than others because I used to have a terrible problem with fear.

My fears centered around social anxiety and other crazy, irrational fears. I do not want to pretend to be an expert on the fears that people face. I do understand that people have all sorts of life experiences that would impact the particular fears in their minds. Fear itself, though is the same and always deals with the possibility of something happening, something in the future and not in the present.

FEAR – an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger

Merriam – Webster

Backstory stuff

When I was a girl I was painfully shy. I was afraid of too much attention. I was afraid of having to respond to a question. I was afraid of being embarrassed. I was afraid of messing up. I was afraid of dissapointing people. I remember hiding behind my very outgoing mom often.

Another fear I dealt with was irrational fear. It would especially plague me at night as I tried to go to sleep. I couldn’t quite put my finger on the specific thing that scared me, but I remember feeling paralyzed with fear until I would finally yell out “DAD!” until he came and then he would pray with me.

Jump ahead a few years…

As a young, newly married youth pastor’s wife, I remember saying, with hurt feelings, to my very outgoing husband “why do you walk around and talk to everyone on Sunday mornings, leaving me by myself?” He replied kindly that I should go around and be friendly too, welcome people to church, and meet new people. This seemed like a logical thing to do, and I could not be offended by his response, even though I wanted to be.

The next Sunday, I decided to try to push myself out of my comfort zone and I introduced myself to someone I didn’t know.

“Hello, I’m Nadine, what’s your name?”

(Woman replies with her name)

Are you new to (name of town)? Is this your first Sunday?

Woman replies, (greatly annoyed at my not recognizing her): “Well, I’ve been going here for 3 years now!”

“Oh, I’m sorry” I replied and then very awkwardly end the failed conversation.

After my failed attempt at being a friendly youth pastor’s wife I realized something: the thing that scared me (being embarrassed, messing up, failing at conversation) wasn’t really the worst thing in the world. After I failed, it actually helped me to try again, and again, and again. I found out that the worst that could happen by being friendly was being rejected, but that was still better than not trying at all.

This fear, like others that I have worked through, has been conquered by facing it. I had practiced the avoiding people technique for about 20 years and it did nothing to relieve my fears of talking to people. I have now been practicing making conversation, in my often awkward way, for about twenty years and I can say that it has been much more effective. I rarely find myself feeling social anxiety anymore.

Scarier fears

When I was about 23, I found out that I was pregnant. My husband and I already had our first beautiful daughter, Jessica, and we were excited for her baby sibling. We told everyone! Then I started bleeding. Then they couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat. 4 weeks later, I miscarried the baby. My heart broke. I was in a deep depression for a year where I was determined to blame myself.

In the midst of that pain I was baptized in the Holy Spirit and I prayed in other tongues for the first time. (Check out the book of Acts in the Bible if you want to know more about this.) My new-found prayer language was a great comfort to me during this time. Eventually, gradually, I remember not being depressed anymore.

When I became pregnant again after the miscarriage I was terrified. Fears of losing this baby kept me from telling my friends and family I was pregnant. My fears were relieved when the doctor used the heart beat monitor and I heard the thumping of our rainbow baby, Olivia’s heartbeat.

It occurred to me then, and still rings true that hope is a great road block to fear. Hope is similar to fear in that it involves what will happen in the future.

Hope – to cherish a desire with anticipation

Merriam-Webster

I can decide to hope in positive things or be afraid of negative things. Sometimes people will make fun of hopeful people and call them naive. It’s different though. We have someone to hope in. His name is Jesus. As Christians, we should be the most hopeful people around. If you haven’t given your life to Christ and found the ultimate source of hope, you can, you won’t regret it. Start your journey today!

Irrational Fears

This seems a little funny to say, “Irrational fear” because really, all fear is irrational. I found this great quote in an unlikely place ( a Will Smith futuristic sci-fi movie that I won’t recommend on account of the violence). Anyway, in the movie, the dad character is giving a pep talk to his son about fear and he says: “Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity.” That’s good, right?

Some fears may be in our minds because of a past trauma, and I am not belittling that pain; they are fears, nonetheless, about it happening again, in the future. But other fears are completely irrational, they come out of nowhere, they don’t make any sense. These fears, I have found, are just as paralyzing as the ones that come from past experiences or current threats.

I have found irrational fears to be demonic. These fears of death and terror magnify problems and paralyze the victim. They make people do things they wouldn’t normally do. These types of fears would wake me up at night or keep me from sleeping even as a grown woman. These fears do not have to be tolerated.

I have found prayer to be the best killer of fear. When you pray the scriptures, you will find your mind renewed with the truth and you will see fear for the lie that it is. When you pray in the Spirit, you will find an authority that only comes from God, fear is no match for it. When you pray with others, you will not only find relief that you’ve shared your problem, you will also receive emotional and spiritual support.

This is my favorite scripture verse on fear, because it tells me what God has and hasn’t given us. It tells me that fear is the opposite of power, the opposite of love, and the opposite of a sound mind.

Thank you for reading along with this blog post about living a fearless life. It’s the best way to live.

If you would like to find out more about our ministry, Kingdom Pursuit Ministries, go to www.kpministry.org My husband preached a great message about fear a few years back, you can watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acp-o38SI5M&feature=youtu.be